Rant of the day
Sometimes you have to pretend everything is okay.
Sometimes you need to push through the pain and when you find more of it, you push more.
Life isn't beautiful; it's terrifyingly so.
When the medicine kicks in and you want to rage, rage on in as safe a manner as you can.
Spend your free time learning. And by learning, go to the library and pick up a random ass book on pollinators and read it. Do something good with your time if you can.
Stop judging yourself and everyone else so harshly. They are probably just as boring as you are.